It's Not Me! Poem by Anthony Granados

I don't know what to do
Every time I think it's all about you
You tell me it's too late
I agree.
But it hurts I'm in a saddened state
It's called Depression

Being locked in my room isn't helping
Leaving me alone
With my thoughts
Might be dangerous
But I try to fight for my life and son
I just can't!
I'm done!

I need help!
I think bad thought, but they're not mine
I want to be happy and live
There is something inside me
And He doesn't want me to

Cause every time I try to sleep
I choke!
My heart pounds!
Anxiety rises!
I can't breathe
It seems like a bad dream
But it's not, and it won't stop.
I might die!

But I calm
For a second
Then more thoughts flood my head
Causing it to rise and start again

The Demon inside me wants a friend
He's tearin me limb from limb
I fight and He gets angry
I get madder and go into a rage
I punch the wall
Break my knuckles
Get these thoughts out of my head
I look at my hand it's swollen red

I close my eyes
I try to count
But it doesn't work
The Demon's takin its toll I just want to give in
But I don't
Then a sudden release
He gave first, I won

My thoughts are mine
And they are good
And I cherish them
It's done

For Now