"Just Once" Poem by Nia Chan

"Just once",
I wanna know how it feels,
"Just once",
What's the worst that can happen,
it heals
The tan turns to red
The silver is now tinted
I sat there and watched as I bled
"Bad idea" my brain hinted
"It will only be once" I thought
However, that proved to be a lie
The urges grew stronger, but I fought
Until I didn't, and gave in yet again
With a sigh
Cherry, maroon, red apple, all shades of red
But none as pretty as the one I created
The satisfaction in watching the way I bled
Something I loved, due to someone I hated
But it helped me forget
The things I desperately didn't want to remember
It protected me when I felt upset
Only for the cost of my skin which I was willing to surrender
"JUST ONCE"