Lament Of Innocence No.002 Poem by Wandering Vampire

Im running in circles again,
There's a beginning but has no ending.
This words keep me choking,
Everytime i talk no words are coming.

Hours have passed and i still cant sleep.
Its the same thought stirring in my head.
Im in risk looking for something,
A thing that might take away the pain.

But i find it hopeless,
What im doing are seem to be pointless.
Words are slowly fading,
Counting the days im blankly staring.

Like a firefly i keep glowing in the dark,
Wide awake im staying all night.
As the rain began to fall,
My eyes become so teary.

I can hide and pretend,
But i cant seem to deny.
That i need someone to hold,
In this cold lonely nights.

Someone i can lean on,
In this long tiring days.
But where are they,
Everyone seems to be faraway.

Times like this were hard for me,
Easy to get in but hard to get out.
Dark memories came flooding in.
Like a wildfire it burns enything.

Hidden emotions were erupting,
Losing my sense it torments my inner being.
Im still alive but barely breathing,
Im almost there but i can't win.

I want to end it but something gets in the way.
I want to move on but something makes me stay.
Under the influence of useless efforts,
I let numb my escort.

Its the only thing helping me to strive,
Doing my best just to survive.
Singing the lament song,
I carried on like nothing's wrong.

There's an exit but i use the backdoor.
It hurts but im coming back for more.
Why i cant be me the way it was,
Not like this im always in fuss.