Landing Back In Hell Poem by courtney metcalf

I'm guilty of living my life in chapters
Living in the now, instead of living in the afters
Prioritizing,
Getting straight to what matters
I'm planning, but I'm not planning
Taking elevators, while building ladders
I'm getting no where, and wondering why
But I'm not sure how to live, or how to get by
Frustrated,
Because I don't know how to handle the situation I'm in
Feel like I keep failing, in the same ways
All over again
Here I am, scene twenty. This is the fourth take
What I mean is that I'm twenty, and this is my fourth time to make this same mistake
I'm not completely sure about exactly how I fail
I just know I need to figure it out
So I can quit landing back in hell