Last Song (Leaning Against The Wall) Poem by Ray Mesa

The lights are set on
And all the kids begin to leave
The dj says 'this is the last song'
I lean agianst the wall and begin to feel weak

The lyrics fly though the speakers
I gather my courage to speak to her
she flutters her eyes and turns my way
I ask her and she says 'no way'

My feet sweep with the pumping beat
My tears are falling union to the music
I've been turned down ten times
My heart is bleeding and blind
I can't say anything, My feelings are abused

The music ends and I walk home
I want to be near anyone, I just don't want to be alone
No one looks my way
Maybe today just wasn't my day
Maybe they all think I'm gay
My Doller store eyeliner is melting off my face
i wish I could be anywhere but near this place

No girl likes me
I keep telling myself
That maybe one day I'll be kissed
Oh I'd let red lights blind me
Oh I'd do anything to get off this shelf
If just one secound, A girl spoke to me with lips
i'd float, I'd fly, I'd hover in bliss
I just can't get over being myself

It's last call
My final song
I walk into a bathroom stall
and pull out a gun
If no one wants me
I'll just leave