Laxity Poem by Himanshu Sanghani

The feeling roughed me, giving sour emptiness
I am alone inspite of brawny world around me
I only went low never high
accomplished nothing
I am so lost please help me
my mind is exploding

I have lost the senses; my eyes are not with me
blood refuses to pour the heart leaving it to die
this death is so heavy I can’t carry it
please riposte, this heart
may get crushed by me
find a way back, may it be just a lie

I know I made a mistake
I know I should have listened
I know god won’t forgive my deeds
I curse myself
I know

Please help me!

But it’s not your fault, you just tried
holding in my arms I screamed,
hell lord! Can I switch, summon me instead
It’s not destined, not the right time
It’s my laxity, she died

God I am alone I want to die