Leave Or Stay Poem by Camille Soberano

I have been rejected
They say I should be neglected
Gracefulness, politeness, beauty, I don't possess
Strict matchmaker I cant impress

Ancestors and forefathers, please
Guide me in my struggles at least
My father, mother can't attain peace
If I am always dismissed

In this difficult era
We faced a terrible dilemma
Not marriage but in a different arena
Which could cost the life of my beloved 'papa'

But do I have to play this part?
I don't know where to start
In every direction I choose, I know I will be hurt
But with my hesitations, I can't attain the desires of my heart

How can I rescue myself today
There is nothing for me to do or to say
My life is in a complete disarray
So am I going to leave or to stay?