Leaving Poem by Nick Downer

It's been a week since I got the news,
since you told me you're leaving.
I thought that each day
was suppose to make it better,
but it doesn't.
Each day fills me with more dread
knowing that time, the thief of all good things,
is lurking, waiting to steal you away from me.
So I can't control my tears.
They hide behind my eyes
until im alone, then they spring forth,
accusations of my sadness, my pain.
Since I have no control over them,
I just try to control my words.
Try not to plead, beg you not to leave me
make promises, bribes...
and I think i could do better,
but given the situation I think I'm doing pretty good.
When I catch myself begging..
'please dont leave me' I
try to stop myself.
I can't hold people back, I dont want to.
People leave me, do what will make them happy
and im glad they're happy
but it really hurts a lot.
You're the only person
who i know how you feel about me.
Know you love me
know you care about me.
Without you, im scared
because im not sure who i have.
I know it's so selfish
but you take care of me,
and im scared to be left on my own.
You are my best friend,
my brother, my dad..everything.
I'm going to miss you so much
and I dont know what I'll do with myself.