Lonley Clown Poem by Garett Ryan

I'm done with drugs.
They make me sad.
Or do they stop me from pretending?
Have I convinced myself to just be happy for you?
Then the drugs let the sadness seep through?

I can’t listen to music because it’s all the same song.
‘So tell me you love me. So it will be alright'.
But you won’t, I hate how I feel but can’t help to think it’s real.

I’m hopeless without you nothing but sadness in my rearview.
But now I gotta look straight.
You’ve picked your path it’s probably not with me.
But I will love you eternally.

Sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t have fallen, since I’m sinking to the ground.
I’m drowning feeling like a clown lurking in the background.
Of love. But surrounded by hate.

A piercing pain in my chest.
A bullet straight through my vest.
Into my heart it struck.
I’m done with love this useless pain.
My heart and mind constantly strain.

It wasn’t just you.
I’m just tired of being blue.
I need to turn my life around
Before I die a clown
With no make up to hide this frown.