Lost Poem by Jessica Millsaps

In all there is, I know nothing
Time passes me like a river flowing onwards
It goes on and on, reaching the ocean and spinning ever further
I'm so lost in this sea of darkness

I am engulfed,
Waves crashing upon me, filling my mind,
My soul cries out, unstable
Things have been for so long

Fear clutches for me
I swim away, frightened
Nothing stops this whirlwind of doubt
Trust is farther than all else

What was once thought safe ground crumbles
Once believed harm free murders
Once believed kind hurts
And there I stand

No sense is made
No mind is set
No thought is sure
Not one thing, save regret

They say you never regret what happened
But I do
Tears no longer comfort me.
Nothing does now

It's been too long,
It's far too late
I can do nothing to stop it now
Like a disease, that slowly destroys

That's what I am.
You'll never understand
Not until you feel this
But I can't help you there
Because help doesn't come
Loneliness is the only option