Lost Total Con-Trol (Perfect Storm, Pt.6) Poem by Axley Jade Blaze

They will shake all their heads,
And, they will tell you: "you never learned!
We told you she was a dark, dark,
clever girl."

They will say; they will say.
"She never loved you."
They will say.

"She always understood this,
She always conned well, "
They will say.

And you will believe them.
That I provided a counterfeit love;
And, this death was a comedy!
—personal gain.

And, they will shake their heads, sadly;
"don't you get it yet? "
While you wrap me in those satin sheets
I've waited my whole life for.

And they will say:
"Don't you get it yet?
She was a clever girl, you fool,
This was her plan all along."

And, still
You will bury me in a pile of books,
In the backyard of an obscure library.
Just like I always wanted.

And you will laugh at how absurd I am,
And you will know:
Some of what they say? Sure, it's true.
But they don't get it, babe;
Me and you?
We're on the same page.

And, you will laugh as you
Kiss my cold forehead goodbye
And apologize for not having the ballet dancers,
I demanded at my funeral.
And, you will laugh at that too.

'Cause really babe?
It was always us against the world.

And you will join me.
And we will laugh together forever.
As they say, and say and say…
"The fool doesn't get it yet? "

The truth is fun.
And, we get that.
That humor.
And, I am yours forever, always,
From day one babe, a decade ago.
All the way until now.

And, you demand I rot in pieces, too,
And, mother-f*ck me for this, babe!
Wish me nothing but death.
Ha!
—Before you laugh and know:
We were always us.

We were.
And, this was meant to be.
It was.

And, this is my poem,
My gift
My goodbye, hello:
To you.


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