Love? Poem by Adell Frostbit

Why is it...
Why did i fall when no one pushing me...
Why did i lose eventhough i have nothing else...
Why did i fear when i do have the courage to face it...
Why did i lie for if it was not for me...
Why did i ashamed myself when nothing could come from it...
Why did i feel happy when i being criticised...
Why did i feel lonely if i am happy with it...
Why is it...Why is it...
I do not get it at all...
Am I a moron to begin with...
At least I am happy to have it.