Loving Her As I Do Poem by Danny Speicher

I have been in a murky, saddened corridor
And the pain is oft more than I can take
At times I’ve forgotten just what I’m living for
And each morning I find it hard to wake

Love’s been my mantra long as I can remember
And giving it has always trumped receipt
I gave my love to her, April to December
And then that love found its final defeat

I wonder at times if she thinks of me fondly
And, if she were better she’d take me back
More than anything, I guess my mind works oddly
And I only wish her to find her knack

In dreams I’ve seen her cry a million times before
And in my heart I’ve heard her call my name
At those times I pray for her to feel pain no more
And know if she needs me, I’m still the same

I know she wants me to reach to her as a friend
And I know she longs to hear my voice, too
But, these feelings, by my own will, I just can’t end
And, bedlam, I refuse to put her through

For she simply cannot love me as I love her
And I can’t stop loving her as I do
For when my eyes look on her, these thoughts start to stir
And she becomes central in life anew

Don’t ask why my heart cannot disconnect within
And just see it as a love I once knew
I hope for a day when I look on where I’ve been
And not see her, then, as right now I do

But, for now I just pray, five hundred miles away
And my heart longs for love it can’t embrace
Forever looking forward to that coming day
And dream her heart, for me, might have a place

((March 26th,2011))