Loving You Poem by Kara Johnstad

Loving you
I shall die
Either way
There is no return.

For if I say no
To this passion
That slumbers within,
No, to your laughter
That slips under my skin

No to my heart
That longs to take wing
No, to a moment
More precious than spring

No, because the distance
Is far too far, too vast
No, because why try?
When we know that nothing will last...

In this moment
When I look life
Right straight in the eyes
And choose NO
In response to God's sweetest surprise

In that same moment of NO
I shall start to whither and die
My heart shall grow heavy
And the sun shall not rise

Live a pauper's life
Empty pockets and pretty lies
Solemn and somber
A lovely disguise

I buried my flight
'So well behaved”
Ticking off time
As I march to my grave

And yet if I say yes,
To following this bliss
The kind that leads to topsy-turvys
And martinis with a twist

Yes, to the difference in age
And the difference of place
The wild funny stories
And a place on your face

Yes to these lines,
That just won't leave my head
You go grrrlllll,
Before you are dead.

If I say yes to this ache
Which I don't understand
That has pulled me right out of
My logical plans....

If I say yes,
To licking the salt off your skin
Or allowing you to enter me
Deep deep within

Then my oh my
Then I shall really die
As I surrender
To life's sweetest surprise

And this death will be quick
On that night of no moons
As we glide on lake
And you dive like a loon...

And there in the dark
Without time, age or space
There we are showered
In God’s Holy Grace

I am not here
And you are not there
We are where nobody worries
And nobody cares

Only our souls to see
If it were true
Only our hearts that beat..
I love you.