Maybe Not Poem by Daichi Nomura

Maybe not.
what was I thinking
we could never be friends
or anything more
I tried, I really did
but I hate you so much
you just can't see
you're blinded by your anger
as I am with mine
if I take off your blindfold
what will I see?
eyes filled with sadness and hate?
I could never tell you
how much I care
I know this is bad
but there's one more thing I can try
complete control
thats all I have left
but what do I want with a doll,
who does everything i say?
free will is a right
I have no right to take away your right
and if I do? it will come back
seven times worse
and my plan won't work
maybe I can change the future
by changing me
but I can't change you
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry, that I ever loved you
and I'm sorry I can't let out my feelings
any other way
and I'm sorry no one else can read this
or that this apology is too long
or that I really spelled that wrong
I'm sorry for saying sorry
or bothering you
with
lies.