Medicate Poem by Dmitri Davis

I've been lying awake at night,
I've been hoping that I'm alright,
I've been winding myself too tight,
I wonder if i will sleep tonight?
I never thought that things would get like this,
I've been hoping that they'd work out,
Still ingesting the wrong amount
Now i seem to be filled with doubt...

I cannot stop this ride!
I'm going cold inside!
I shouldn't let it slide!
Will secrets be mine?

This should not be my way to bear,
Go on acting like I don't care,
Stop this high, I wouldn't dare,
I have learned to serve my share,
Things like this happen everyday.
While I'm in there I feel okay,
They say I should get away,
Let me go just for one for day...

I cannot stop this ride!
I'm going cold inside!
I shouldn't let it slide!
Will secrets be mine?

I cannot stop this ride!
I'm going cold inside!
I shouldn't let it slide!
Will secrets be mine?

I've got to medicate myself,
I'm not concerned about my health!
It covers what I've been dealt!
This is the only way!

I've got to medicate myself,
It's been the only thing that's helped,
It's covered up what I've felt,
This is the only way!