Memories Poem by something changing

memories...
thoughts of what
seem like long ago
a time before
you chose her
a time when
you were my light
when you kept me
right on course
you never knew
you held my heart
or that you
took it with you
when you left
do you know
that you still have it?
that i was never able
to properly reclaim it?
do you know
that you still
plague my dreams?
except now it's just
you and her
with me left behind
left behind to
torture myself
with what could have been
instead of
what might be...
memories...
that leave me breathless
that leave me trembling
i've abandoned myself
to keep
this memory of you

(i'm afraid my poetry has turned pretty one-note... i'm sorry for that. the same old thoughts keep rolling around in my mind, and i can't let them go...)