Mistakes And Memories Poem by Guarded Heart

Of all the mistakes we made
Of all the times my heart ached
Of all the times i felt out of place
Of all the memories that i saved
Every time i felt my heart break

When it broke it broke for you
Every piece that came crumbling away
Fell in front of you on a silver plate
The tears that fell from my face, for you as well
They shall fill your glass as your wine
And you wil remember them as mine

As i am racked with internal pain
The memories i see plain as day
I dont want to forget, but it hurts to remember
And i can't hide from whats happening inside
My heart, my mind, my body is aching
And tonight there is no escaping it

I have a disorder that no one can heal
I see my past in exquiste detail
It brings joy, but mostly pain
I find it hard to remain sane
I will lay on the floor as though i am maimed
And wait for someone who will come to save me