My Enemy. Poem by Rawan Hassan

my soul is my enemy,
my whole life is doomed.
struggling with my devil,
fighting like a rebel.
trying to take my breath,
tired of fighting against death.
but death is what i'm longing for,
it was my only dream before.
i was born to struggle this life,
i learned how to use my knife.
to protect me from the enemy that i see,
but i discovered that the enemy is me.
with the bewildering agony
which acts with the pain in harmony.
asking me to lose my mind,
begging me to lose the fight.
but fighting is what i do
and i don't even know against who.....