My Mother Poem by Smrui Ranjan Mohanty

MY MOTHER-3

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My words have left me
So also my reasoning
My smile, tears and emotions
My heart haslost its voice
Since the moment you departed
I know not how to express myself.

I do not know
What happened to me
With your departure
Departed my passions to live
I don't find enough guts
And the motivation to carry me

Your untold sufferings
Sad and gloomy smile
Tell many a story
It pricks me like a thorn
Whenever I think despite
Thecorona pandemic
I could have done much more
With you, a nurse had been
Since the last five and a half years
But I could not arrange one for you
During your last days and months
For which you might have silently suffered
All these only add to my agony
And tell me in many ways
I was badly lacking

When we last met
Just a few days before that dark night
I could see your aching body,
Aching heart, watery eyes
A mind not responding to me
But could do nothing
But to leave you where you were
At least with you
I could have stayed a night there
No answer to that
And it will haunt me till I breathe my last

You had to die
To tell me what a mother means
And I am that unfortunate son
Who realised it after losing everything

Smruti Ranjan Mohanty