My Pain Poem by Jessie Mahoney Bathis

MY PAIN


Sometimes I just want to disappear,
I get so tired of living here.
So much I can not explain,
Too many years of pain.
So many things have come and past,
I stand still as time moves fast.
Each day I fall so slow,
There is so much that you must not know.
If there were a way for me to speak and say everything that I feel,
You'd hope my words were fake, that they weren't real.
If only you could see what goes on inside,
My pain, you'd know why it has to hide.
I fall apart as the tears stream down,
No one stops me as i fall to the ground.
My fears just disppearing is a heavenly dream,
I lay here wishing someone could hear my screams.
If I pick myself up, I'll wonder why.
Why don't I make it easier and lay down to die.
What I wouldn't give just to be free,
I'm locked in between your world and mine.
If only someone could see,
That i'm really not fine.
Someone please look at me,
look into my eyes.
Everytime i'm ignored,
A little part of me dies.
I don't know where i am in my own little world,
help me before it all falls apart.
Please help mend my broken heart.
From love it does not ache,
from love my heart does not break.
From the emptiness my heart has become hollow,
the pain, I hope you'll never know.
You tell me you understand, how painful can it be?
you will never understand until you're in this darkness with me.


Jessie Mahoney Bathis 23-8-05