I'm sick of not being good enough.
You want me to be more social,
but you don't want me on the phone.
You don't want me hanging with friends.
So,
I joined a sport
I didn't really want to join.
So I could be away from my knife
and from my cigarettes.
So I could be away from you.
I hate what our 'family' has become.
Am I good enough yet?
I guess I'll just keep trying.
I'm quiter, I stay up in my room,
I don't talk to you about my problems.
I get good grades.
Am I better now?
I'll try again.
I'm around less, I'm quiet
and I don't tell you
the things I really want to.
I keep it bottled up
so you don't have to deal with it.
I try to be good,
be smart.
I try so hard.
Am I good enough for you?
What about if I just become
catatonic
except for working, cleaning, and school?
No? Still not enough?
How about now?
With a gun to my head?
Oh no,
what are you going to do without me
to dump everything on?
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem