No Longer Will I Cease Trusting In You, Papi Poem by Ibrahim Enitan Eniola Olubiyi

For no known reason,
I have met with failure wherein success should have been
Given the level of my preparedness,
Success mine should have been
Yet, it grew wings and away it flies from me,
Papi, it hurts!
I am discouraged!
Nevertheless, I will trust in you

All that should be done humanly speaking,
Papi, I have done
I have laboured like an elephant
Ate like mere ant,
I have knocked,
Yet, the door would not be opened to me,
I have asked, Silence received I in response,
In seeking have I sought you oh! Papi
Still i have found nothing,
What can best describe my miserable life?
Actions and reactions are equal but opposite,
Yet, the force behind my miseries remain unknown
Not withstanding, no longer will I cease believing you

I have moved from being impatient to being most patient,
I have waited on you Papi,
Just like you have requested
Yet, my strength is not renewed
I bet a day old chick is better of than I am in terms of strength
My heart is broken, Papi,
When will you look down on me with compassion?
When will you put an end to a journey of forty days that my adversaries had turned into that of 4o centuries?
When shall smile grease my face again?
In all this Papi,
No longer will I cease trusting you

Perhaps I suffer because of the multitude of my iniquities
Or is it as a result of that of my ancestors?
Why this never ending cycle of pain, frustration and grieves?
I care no more about whose fault it is Papi
Rather to you I come, For mercy I plead
Papi, be compassionate on me,
Least your adversaries mock you for my sake,
Papi, yours is honour,
Your words never fall to the ground Papi
Dare to honour your words in my life, Oh! Papi
Till you answer me favourably,
I won't cease trusting you

For want of a pearl,
The irreversible yet highly precious was lost,
Lost to the dogs of this world!
For want of a pearl, my place in you I once relinquished,
For what of a good thing,
I have been condescending, Papi,
I lost focus all for want of this and that
Papi, I am sorry! ! !
Listen to my supplication,
Arise and have mercy on me!
Dare to terminate my sojourn in this cycle of pain,
Deliever me oh! Master of the universe!
Till you put laughter in my mouth again,
I will always trust in you, Papi