Nov.30th 2015 Poem by Starseed Child

years pass, days come and go but your memories stay, I choose to burn the bridge between us and now there are mazes of canyons between...your constantly moving forward but its like I can't bring myself to take the first step, were we just a dream I created, forever only lasted but for a day it seems, your smile still shines the most radiant and your voice still brings everything to tranquility, when you wrap your strong arms around me the world seems much safer, forgiveness is not the something I deserve from you...regrets run and run, why can't the feeling of amnesia bless me, why do I live day to day with these only punishment can be the answer...over years I've built up barriers, armor nothing can penetrate but these memories that play through like a film reel crushes them to dust and reminds me how to cry and always with a numbness and pain the thought I let you go, forced you to walk into her arms she held wide and open for you, warm and sincere something I was never able to do for you...this smoke chases away everything, I'm sorry, I can't be strong enough to face it, time never healed my wounds...it only created bigger crevices within my heart that won't heal a feeling of bleeding almost takes over and my whole body wants to collapse to the ground a life time of this won't compare to the pain I caused, don't say you forgive me...my heart, no...my whole soul couldn't take it...