Obscured Poem by Joseph Caraveo

Sometimes I feel obscured
Lost between who you said I am
And who I want to be.

Your words were always loving
Shored up with lies
Slurred with another beer
Gleaming thru blood shot eyes

How was I to know
I trusted you
A parental covenant
Unwritten vow

I wander
Searching for who I am
Lost amongst the clouds

I AM NOT who you said I was
Still it's hard to see
The shame you gave
Lies you told
I struggle to find me

Looking thru the window
Distorted to only me
I can’t find what others see
Only the vision you gave to me

Like a computer with a toxic bug
Programmed from your pain
For years you feed the machine
Even in the light of day
Your ghost still finds me

ANGRY I shatter the glass
It somehow still return
Telling me I’m not ok
Just a blemish on the earth

Baggage I carry
You passed it along
Did you free your self
I’m holding on

Always feeling less then
Unlovable, broke, corrupt
The sins of the father
Passed to the Son

Tell me how to free myself
I’m tired of holding on