On This Quiet Winter Day Poem by Kristy Wisser

On this calm winter day
i sit and question
Why is life so difficult?
Everyday is a struggle to survive
To remain sane
Not to spend every waking moment crying
Over what he said
All his lying
Leaving my heart broken
A pain on the inside
Emotionally scarred
Physically too
i wonder why I live my life this way
Why i drown myself in pain
Why my mind won't alow me to cut deeper
And why is the blade so dull?
I stopped for awhile
But this addiction
An addiction to pain
Trying to grip sanity
Just like the rest of humanity
But somehow its different for me
Like a whole different struggle
What's going on?
I feel so horribly wrong
It's like a song you have stuck in your head