Once Again Poem by Tea Kawana

Once again I’m at this downfall in life,
which I never get to see
its beginning or where it lies.
“I don’t get it” I cry.
Are my heart’s feelings decayed?
or not set right that I’m a
hurt to all.

In a day you wake up
as cheerful as a bird
and you take your time on living;
putting your communion with the
Almighty well.
True you never know
what can befall you in a day.

Trust was not something
I was comfortable with.
But I’m here,
in a place where being completely on
your own only builds
to yourself, no lessons, no criticism, no help,
no change.

I’d try,
and my tries had come to an
accumulation
that I, myself should preside
and just be who I am.
Though I am who I am all along.

Disparity is only that,
then I wasn’t willing;
I had denied all lessons, criticism and help
and remained in unchange;
which isn’t life.

And here I am
perplexed at all what is said.
And so once again I remain;
though not in an opaque place
but in transparency.


And Lord please keep me