Pain Poem by A New Life Has Began! ! ! ! ! ! !

I have the thought going through my mind
never is it easy to say no
I have been in this spot before
You have seen sign after sign
why have you not tried to help me
is anything ever going to change
you dont know the rush i get when the blade hits my skin
when I slide it as deep as i can go against my wrist
everything changes
all my pain and fear goes away for a split minute
then I have to do it over and over again
all of the blood sliding down my wrist dripping o to the floor
I know its not just your fault it is mine as well
I will take the punishment that is served to me
I just feel like you are trying to pull me into your choices