Pain That Transforms Poem by Bullion Grey

Once I thought about only my pain,
I contemplated only my misery.
After years of hell pain and suffering,
it was just there blocking my view.

Once I stopped this self importance,
and saw a brief glimpse, behind my cloud,
for a brief moment I saw the pain in others,
the sufferage of humanity, pain of all.

That was all it took, just that one sight,
in that moment changed my heart,
transformed my soul, invigorated my spirit,
resolved my ability to respond.

Then I stopped, standing in my own griefs,
still in my own views, silent with my own mind,
looking in my mirror I saw someone new,
who never showed before, before that glimpse.

The new work I undertook, the solid efforts gave newness,
where I suddenly stopped crying about my pain,
yelling out for my own lost chances,
speaking about one story, mine.

This caused an amazing thing, that I had no idea,
that this could exist, be for real,
as Grace blanketed me, covered me so,
I began to feel the Unconditional Love.

God spake to me, through dreams, thoughts,
sights, and experiences, through others.....
Telling me that first step was the hardest,
even more tough than all my griefs.

I started to seek Love, to become a surveyor of Love,
to be a sentinel for the advancement of Grace,
to be, stand, wait for instructions, of the
new world that would be.

I began to offer my heart to others in wound, in suffer,
helping the lost to find, the unloved to be loved,
the hungry to eat, the homeless to be home-ed,
becoming a part of the new world for them & myself.

Now my world began to dramatically transform,
gifts I didnt know I had, made themselves known,
and thus my soul did grow, spirit did survive,
through the sadness of mine and strangers.

Today it is known by others who know,
and myself that what we look at for our sadness,
our pain, magnifies our own blindness,
and that which we give away, & forgive today,
starts to heal.