Painless Poem by Shay Mitchell

I cry out all my tears,
Alone with all my fears.
I try to forget,
About all the pain he brought.

When i grab the knife,
I walk out into the night.
Looking up at the stars,
With my unseeing eyes.

I try to forget all the memories,
And all my unspoken worries.
As the knife sinks into my stomach,
I remember my unborn baby.
The baby i lost,
Even though it's what i wanted most.

As my heart starts to slow,
My unstoppable blood flows.
When i'm paralyzed with pain,
It starts to rain.

It's getting closer now,
I wonder who's going to come to my funeral.
I slowly close my eyes,
And when i open them, there he waits.
He kneels by my side,
Begging me not to die.

He grabs my hand,
And tells me about all our memories.
I think he's trying to help,
But i'm not sure.

I can't feel his hand in mine anymore,
Will he ever care about me after this horror?
I think it's still raining,
But i close my eyes praying.
That no one will start crying,
When they find out my ending.

I squeeze his hand one last time,
And whisper 'i love you'.
Just one last time,
I look into his eyes.
Hoping to remember every detail,
Once i stop my denial.