In your eyes
you are yet
forgetful of
your true estate.
Have you forgotten your
heart is not quiet?
the purpose of philosophy is
to quiet the emotions
but how can you be happy
when you know you are alone?
that your plate is not full?
My heart is tied up
up in many knots.
They keep my strings taut
and ungiving..
yes. so there is the
zen of nothing
the algebra of need
one to me is
fame and shame
etc.
study kabala.
the ancient hebrew texts.
they get you close.
they say
the universe
was created
from pure thought
by means of
letters and numbers
only the devil could do that.
the sages say it’s as easy
as one...two...three...
and A... B... C...
numbers and letters.
but which ones?
they never reveal
them along the way.
kabala gives number one
through number nine
and twenty two letters
in the hebrew alphabet
you could make anything
in the world
if you could
spell it right
i was a student of
kabala and it was
hard
you must first acquire
the knowledge
kabala is so abstract.
you cannot deny the truth..
because you can make
the universe
it’s so subtle
it could make you laugh
and at the same time
feel guilty
but even god had to
start somewhere
if it wasn’t A-B-C
it was Aleph-Beth-Gimel
and this calls for
a lot of knowledge
a lot of facts
the zen of numerology
is the belief that
only by living
without desire
can you
avoid suffering.
that you are nothing
That you don’t exist
how can your
heart be empty?
become
a root of
knowledge
and the word
a thought
atropos
your heart is empty
you become a zealot
a scholar
a man who takes his
knowledge seriously
because you have
experienced
suffering
you could not feel nothing
kick something
be anything
these things i have given you
these things i love
to prove that one does not equal
zero
study astrology
surround yourself with
signs and symbols
of
the stars and planets
a weather report of the
known universe
a deck of cards
with an ace for a face
and a deuce for the other end
tarot
later on astronomy
a cast of elephants
and tortoises
of what ever hindu world
is appropriate
the theory of cosmic reality
(that we cite as the only
true religion)
states clearly that
in existence all t’s must be crossed
and all i’s dotted
that in the cosmic all-there-is
the at-one-ment we think of as
godhead
all details must be taken into consideration
no matter how insignificant
or beside the point they may seem
that this moment can not be real
unless everything is just the way it is.
and that this ultimate reality
can be changed by changing a single detail.
because everything is just as important
as every other thing
and in this way you maintain
an edge on
ultimate reality
i ching is an ancient chinese system
of divination using yin and yang
to study the rise and fall
of light and dark forces
in the universe
in the coin oracle this is
determined by tossing three coins
and recording the pattern of heads and tails
how important is reality if it can
be determined by something
as insignificant as the toss of a coin?
at first I couldn’t consult
the oracle because i had
no coins and they don’t
accept master charge
then later i got some money
when you are experienced with
i ching you know that it is a book
and it has spirits which can talk
to you as if they were human beings
imagine my astonishment
when the coins revealed this hexagram:
No 1 The Creaive
- - -
- - -
- - -
- - -
- - -
- - -
the first hexagram in the series of
64 hexagrams that comprises the
book of changes
i interpreted this as the spirits
telling me i needed to start at
the beginning
i am alone
but my heart is empty
so that i will not suffer
i conceive of myself
as nothing
because zero does not equal one
at a later time someone will come
my heart will not be empty
and philosophy will rise
i realize
if nothing is real
at least i can become
no thing
after i have obliterated suffering
my senses become not
i can assuage this by drinking
wine
a philosophical attitude is cultivated
when one takes a stance against the
merely ordinary
he seeks to understand reality
in terms of its underlying principles
he does not battle with reality
but accepts it with serene resignation
he is not like a leaf to be blown aside
by any breeze or like a tree to be
uprooted by a storm
he knows that time is absolute
and nothing can stand against it
forever
before a person can interpret the
signs and symbols of existence
to predict the future
he must spend many years in devotion
to the me and the not me of
cosmic wisdom
before he can snap his fingers
and change future events
he must have attained the very
exalted philosophical state
otherwise known as
peace of mind
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Wonderful and thoughtful poem, Theresa. Thanks for sharing