Please... Let Me Go; Poem by Alyssa Siebers

You seem to be my voice, my mind, my microphone.
There are so many places my mind wills me to go,
There are so many places my feet want to wonder too…
I know now though…they would not lead me to you anymore.
So why can’t I get this guilt out of my head?
Why do I think it’s cheating to even think of someone else,
You left me with no lead,
Now I’m lost in a whole new direction.
I want to be able to hear my name as it once was.
But this place, it holds memories of you.
It holds the time you tied me down and kissed me, deep enough to hit through the heart.
It holds us traveling Chicago, seeing the world hanging up side down.
It holds all those walks to Micky D’s as corny as it sounds,
It holds when you wouldn’t stop kissing my nose
It holds you saying you loving me.
It holds you saying “I love you, I should have treated you better or else this would have never happened”
That’s right love, You should have.
At that time you felt guilty, thinking I played with a new lover,
But you’re the one who cheated.
Cheated my heart with mental abuse…
When I look at the shape of your heart,
I see the scars and cutouts, but what can you say,
You’ve caused them all.
If there’s any love left for me, don’t let it show,
This girl can’t keep saying “no”
And you know a thing or two about that.
Leaving, then dragging me back,
You know how to feel alive now don’t you?
There are others out there that actually are alive because of the knowledge they can hand over to others.
To simply treat your girl like a lover.
To hand the man a dollar for kindness.
You; baby. Felt superior to simply push me away knowing I’d be coming right back,
You embarrassed me. And now I’m doing it to myself by coming clean of these secrets I've kept hidden to myself,
My life is going to be gone with the friends who take me exploring.
Half the time we don’t know where, as long as there an’t no man.
I won’t say without you things have gotten a whole lot better,
Looking back on those tickets,
Looking back to that chance at death, with that silly tea,
Mmm tripping my mind, sometimes I would see you, but let's not joke around,
I Knew you’d never be spotted again.
Yeah-' Sorry I- I’m Sorry-' Enough with that!
Love of mine I hope your happy now
Love of mine I hope your still thinking about me.
Lets just dance with music and have some fun,
The Music is so loud, loud enough to block out this broken heart.
Oh I’m running out of power,
I’m tainted by a curse, one that needs to be broken.
Meet someone who will allow me to forget about you love,
Cause if I don’t, all I’m ever going to do is miss your comfort boo.
My biggest fear is life will run it’s course, and my eyes catch onto something,
Something maybe worth to start everything all over,
But then you come back.
Baby I need you to promise to me before I do.
I’m living with these chills.
You should be taking the blame.
There’s nothing left to do.