Premonitions Poem by Nick Downer

I need to build my walls up stronger.
My heart is so weak right now,
despite being so strong
and while I know I could survive,
a fall might break me hard.
This gut-wrenching feelings,
in my stomach, my head,
tells me not to go there
but my heart tugs a different way.
This strange sensation,
I've never had before.
So happy, yet heart-heartbreakingly sad,
knowing she is not her.
No one can be
and no one will be.
Move on, I will and am
but goodbyes linger with me
and I will need patience and understanding.
Does she see that when she looks
in my eyes?