Pulling Heartstrings Poem by Silence Dogood

Everything on the surface.
Seems to be fine.
But no matter what you see.
I'm not okay.

I walk through the school.
Smile at my friends.
Say hello like nothing's changed.
Than head to class.

Wait for the bell to ring.
Sit in my seat passing notes
Head up covered with hood.
iPod in block out all sound.

Look at her
Look at him

Wondering what makes them so damn special.

What holds my gaze.
Captures my attention.
Iron grips my heart.

Head on home.
To doped out family.
Live in hell.
With drunken friends.

This is my life your welcome to join, your welcome to end it all

Punches and kicks.
Thrown in my face.
Evil men with dirty hands
Roam my bodies land.

Nothing good.
Is in my life.
Nothing but him.
But he doesn't notice me.

I don't think she'd care.
Were not the same.
Two sides of the ocean
With no where to meet.

If things were different would we be the same, would you care


I doubt it all.
Hope turns to smoke.
Nothing is clear.
As crystal now.
Give in.
Give up.
Let go the good.
Hold the bad.

Kiss her on the lips.
Cherry lipstick shines.
Kiss him back roughly.
Let him know he's mine.

Grab the trigger.
Pull it harder.
Pop the pills.
Choke them down.

Bruised body.
Tortured and beaten.
A map of needles.
Stain his arms

This is goodbye to love.
To life

One last pain.
To end all suffering.
One last death.
To end the torture.

Grabbing the gun.
Safety off.
Pull the trigger
Pop them pills.

Say Goodbye

As I write my suicide note to you.
Saying how you were right all along.

I write your name on the bullet.
So your the last thing going through my mind.


This is the love that death provides