Questions Poem by raging fire

I sit alone passing the time,
Everyday goes by so fast,
Seems to me I'm losing my mind,
This life is not supposed to last.

What am i doing here?
Is there really any meaning?
This life is all I have to fear,
In the nightmares I am dreaming.

I look out from my hill,
Everythings so pretty,
What I would kill,
To be able to switch bodies.

Would you even notice,
If I weren't here?
Would you rejoice,
Or shed a tear?

How am i supposed to live,
In a life full of sadness?
What I would give,
To leave all this madness.