Razor Poem by Star Blossom Williams

I stare at the blue vein pulsing
I dig a little deeper and feel a release of pure pain
I grow in weakness as the razor penetrates my veins
'Never run across the bridge, instead walk along the streets'
I tried it both ways and I'll have to disagree
I used to feel so bottled up, but each cut destroys some stress
To a drug addict this is weed; a sign of being obsessed
Hundreds of thoughts runs through my mind everyday
Terrified of getting heartbroken, scarred, or betrayed
Having to keep my guard up just in case of an attack
Physically and emotionally bruised after an act
Even when I feel the slighest depression
I put my head down in shame and sigh
Theres no problem, only a solution,
When the only thing left is to cry
I stare into the mirror as the tears roll off my cheeks
The more I think about it, then the worse I'll bleed
At the end of every week theres a new lesson to be learned
They could either mean 'untrustworthy', 'shattered', or 'burned'
My anger kicks in the majority of the time and matters change course
It goes from something to worry about to something
You really shouldn't; according to a source
I dig a little deeper and feel the pressure of pain
I was completely weak as the razor penetrated my veins...
See one day, I will lose all sense and slip in much too deep
Shoveling out an autopsy of Star Williams,
May she rest in peace