Reflections Poem by Ilari Rahja

What, I thought - Caught.
For myself.
I found!
Were feeble things...

Thoughts, hallucinations abound.
Wildly lost.
Centered selfishly upon me.
While thinking of thee.

Why! !

For true value.
Or just to promote me?
Do I...
Want it - Wish it?

To meet.

Grant these terms to yee.
Shameful - Pleasured!
Random, disrupting seeds.
Carelessly planted.

Seeded - Awonder how?
Or why?
Should I respond - move
Believe our thought, hear!

Splendid wonders make!
As I saw them, loved.
Smelled them thither.
Afar - I withered.

My thoughts and dreams.
Where they went, solidified?
I never thought, found out.
Wishes, occasions your soul kept.

Enchanted! Tied to my own.
Such, as it is.
Plain, confused.
As I am - Remain.

Contrasted, by my aim dear.
Challenged!
With thoughtless prayers.
Wishes past.

Ghosts and dreams.
I yearned.
Pinned ideas unto myself.
Preserved time.

I pondered and hoped.
I maimed!
Lives, wonders!
Thus fantasized.

And I walked, the night.
With my shifting retinue of clouds...