Regret Poem by If you look closer you can see that my eyeliner's running XD

Why don’t the voices stop anymore?
Why can’t I breathe?
What do I keep on waiting for?
Questions with the answers of “leave”

I’ve cried a thousand times,
I’ve made a thousand crimes,
I’ve drank till the memory fades,
Regretting it all for the rest of my days.

Wishing that you were here,
I can’t be okay when we lied,
We gave into our darkest fear,
It’s like; everything could be okay if I just died.

Is it so bad to regret?
Regret surviving a suicide attempt?
Is it so bad to forget?
About the only good thing you had left?

Hand me a blade, hand me a bottle,
Hand me a mistake,
Hand me a hate, hand me a throttle,
No let’s just break.

Let these memories fade,
Remember our promise to never change?
I look into the eyes of the one I hate,
She’s in mirror, she’s screwed up, and she’s deranged