Remorse Poem by Marcellus Watts

The feeling of regret
The feeling that destroys like a Parasite
The feeling that is my only emotion
or so call “human” emotion
besides Pain, Sadness, Fear
Remorse is the Most hated Emotion to me
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when the Blood is on some ones hand
There pathetically emotionally weak
Regret fills there eyes
Pain, Fear and misery wells up in there heart
Showing how weak they are
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The Blood on my
Sickness, distance, and Happiness
filled up in my eyes
as I looked down at the sliced up Body
and it bled, the red liquid
it reflected in my eyes and I smiled at my work.
No remorse here
Karma died when I was 12
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Just Sadism, torture, Knives, traps.
No remorse when I blew up my boyfriends house
No regret when I lit fire to my girlfriends father
No Pain, Misery or sadness when I framed my Best friend
I just laughed when he was shot down
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Karma got me today, not with prison
Not with my mother sending me to the “Funny farm”
My father still floating in the sewer
Step dad, stopped drinking
Karma got me good.
It got me with my own emotions
Remorse I recoiled in regret and hate
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Hate that I had that emotion
Hate that I felt that weakness
Hate that the 25 people
in so called Heaven and hell
are laughing at me now...
Hate that I'm so f*cked up
Regret that I didn't take those pills
Regret not killing my Cat...
Hm...
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Remorse got me...Karma coming
After 3 bleeding year now 16
Karma coming
Guess I'm not that immune
I'm over self mutilation not 14 anymore
But Remorse is still here
My blood falls to the floor.
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And the lower half body of my ex Boyfriends falls
Sliced it in half, though he drugged me then rapped me
Still loved him, he couldn't tell.
Since I sliced him in half last thing he heard
“People like us belong in hell sweetie, we deserve to die”
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Remorse inside.
Sadness yes.
Fear No
Pain No
Regret yes,
Karma is still bullocks to me