Sadness Inside Poem by Michael Coates

I have 3 children all with ADHD and autism, one is violent at times and my wife and I have tried for help for the last 12 years, my wife recently lost her leg aswell and has has numerous other operations, on top of that my father inlaw died and with in a week my mother inlaw has had a major stroke so being a carer for everyone has fallen on me. Times have been hard so I pushed for help the report came back I'm a bad parent and have no control over the kids which is utterly wrong my kids are loved and want for nothing, I don't go out or drink, smoke no social life and I have struggled but kept going throughout everything but reading the report I feel I'm bleeding inside and the wound wont heal, all who have read the report are shocked and tell me its not true but I'm feeling down and out so here I am writing this poem to try and relieve some pressure and to share how I feel because I dont want to tell my loved ones they have enough on there plate without my problems