Save Me Poem by Ellis Slater

My voice is soft and weak
Crumbling when I want to talk to most
I wish and beg that I could speak
Have I found another impossible feat?

I am an imposter in this skin
Trying to breakout without any pain
For now, Ill relax despite the crippling force
My weight being barred by these iron chains
Now, If only you'd let me chose my course
Instead of letting my tears fall like rain
You've always said to strike the problem at its source
I'm always being told my stories are so insane
Ill ignore my problems being still as a corpse
And I'll wait to move till you show remorse

I feel like a rabid beast
Something you think you can tame
Treating me less than least
But you're only here for the fame
Go, have your royal feast
I am ready to give up, so take aim

Look into my hazy eyes
It's not clouds of anger, but rather pain
Why can't you see through my lies?
Save me from this well-worn lane

Ignoring my body even when it breaks
Because I can wrap my flesh
When we make contact, I shake
Since that makes my stomach mesh
I am no longer any good if I cannot fake
So I will carry on pretending
That I am proud of every choice I make
And keep going, despite my world ending
These thoughts always seem to keep me awake
Here I am, standing alone defending
All of the time that I have to take
This is my Taps for lights out
I am just a toy for you to shake
"Is sadness the only thing you can write about"
This is not just for me, but for my friends' sake
They cannot find their voice to shout
That their lives feel like a mistake

I've always tried putting you first
But that is when I do my worst
I want to be that happy, that bright
But the costume I have does not fit right
So I try and try
To slim down into this suit
And I lie and lie
To play my part
But we all know
My hips are too wide and I have to much fat on my thighs

Look into my hazy eyes
It's not clouds of anger, but rather pain
Why can't you see through my lies?
Save me from this well-worn lane

You shame me for not being strong enough to confide
Swearing that its like I want to sever our tie
Sorry, But it feels like I'm being brought out with the tide
Pulled out to sea to drown
Except I am barely floating on my backside
I've been made unable to frown
Your love is candy covered in cyanide
Yet I am still homeward bound

I always write down my pain
Lose my pen, lose my brain
I do not know why I feel this way
Despite them being my oldest friend
I never listen to what the voices have to say
Promising that they'll save me at the end
We all know i'm not really okay
I've given out my hand to many times to lend
So now, I will rest my pen, rest my mind
For in this world, I am disappointed by what I find