Self-Annihilation Poem by Rukesh Yadav

What do I lose
If I lose
Myself
Into no thing
For my life
Has become insufferable
With something meager

What do I annihilate
If I annihilate
Myself
For that something is
Nauseating
Sickening
Suffocating

I seek vastness
I seek infinity

I can see
Nothing is vast and infinite as
No thing

So what do I vaporise
If I vaporise
Myself
For being
Trapped
Constrained
In poor something
Is ugly as hell

Pray
Don't disturb me
Keep at bay
And
Let me alone
Let me lose
Let me annihilate
Let me vaporise
Just myself
Into no thing...