Sheer Madness Of The Young Phenomenon 4 Poem by Compton Wright

As the madness of the young phenomenon continues on through my stretching veins
While the blood boils up from the anger of the beast that rattles its cage constantly
I only wished I was perfect with every thought and decision I ever made for me
As everyone around me has their eyes on me watching my progress to criticized
Even with all of my efforts to make everything balanced and skyrocket their love
But everyone I tried to please and smile only gives me more problems about me

How I've only made things worse or I'm becoming into someone that they never
Witness before but really it's only because you're the reason that I'm altering my
Personal persona into something twisted and sick as my dark cruel thoughts are
Locked away in the corners of my mind hoping to never expressed them truthfully
Like distancing myself away from the world and let my depression covers my space
With its familiar darkness that devours my soul while for others it only devour the
Skin of their bodies and leave them scars of the inner pains of the suicidal thinkers

I just don't understand why I'm even continue to breathe but instead tell someone
Just please end my misery but all they only tell me is just drink some alcohol to help
Drown the pain and suffering that surfacing through your eyes that project your illusions
When you're sobered up but yet my mind is too strong willed to give up these thoughts
Even if I did I would guarantee that I would still wake up to that hangover of heartbreak
While I just don't understand why people fear death in their lives but me? ! I welcome it!

Wishing for it daily every time I close my eyes inside this bed I have nightmares when
I slumber so now I look forward waking up during the night with sweat and tears as
Usual aftermath behind each in depth detailed nightmare that continues to make me believe that these are simply visions that are coming soon in the future but even when
I could change it all, become perfect in every way, loved by all and blessed constantly
Wouldn't care anymore because looking at myself in the mirror…I'm already dead to me
And honestly I already wanting my life back and altered into a path of salvation…but it'll
Never happen because as long as my madness run through the Young phenomenon it'll
Become impossible to ask for forgiveness and salvation if this soul is not worth saving….