Nicholas McDonough (07/25/1973 / Green Bay Wisconsin)

emotional push over the edge
feeling better left alone
the world keeps turning black
purify me
these savage thoughts won't go away
a constant craving to quench
the cold fires perpetual burn
absorbed all this agony
with each lesson to learn
depreciated in my mind
hope still to achieve
a wish to believe
find the desire
come the bliss
self arrival I hope to find
fulfillment in my mind
want this all to end
this torment to finish
divinity to begin
never can find the desire
a conformity of nothingness
insecure in my emptiness
lost in resounding waves
pressure drowning
sometimes losing control
triggered flashbacks
leave stained marks on my soul
Condemning me
to withstand agony confined
bleached out forever in my mind
make it right
it swallows me whole
no untraveled ground
my senses numbed
pitfalls of grief
keep pulling me down
leaving me with crying eyes
and sad goodbyes
shock frozen in my mind
Sanctuary we want to find
inside can't look love in the eye
without beginning to cry