So Far Gone Poem by Nicola Hanks

im so far gone.
everything is wrong.
im lost in my mind.
and all the thoughts that i hide.
im losing my faith.
with all this hate.
this is not me.
but no seems to see.
a smiling face.
thats so easily erased.
this is all so real.
the pain that i feel.
all of these things.
make my ears ring.
so miserable i cry on command.
i feel like im slowly drowning in quicksand.
with a tear streaked face.
im such a disgrace.
i hate my entire existence.
im a complete hindrance.
only to myself of course.
right now i feel so much remorse.
for the thoughts in my head.
so i lay here in bed.
with the tears i have shed.
not wanting to face the day ahead.
i dont want to go on.
i say with a yawn.
call me weak if you will.
but hiding this takes skill.
im gonna keep it inside.
bc i still have my pride.
at least i can say i tried.
but hopefully soon i will die.
i dont want to be here anymore.
this is way worse than before.
the one i love constantly puts me down.
leaving me with a frown.
hes no help at all.
he just makes me bawl.
i give up. i am done.
i wish i had a gun.
lets just end this is all now.
see ya later.
goodbye.
ciao.