Sololiquy Poem by Gabrielle Ciarann Roniyah Baer

Skylady,
haunting gently my nights alone
sweetly close yet nowise near
and I
still I fear to follow
where you've flown
if anyone could tell me where.

Night's lady,
aswim in Shadow, grey with mists of dream
I can't hear you, touch or feel,
while I cling,
a drowning man, to life
do I only dream you?
did we share?

Dreamt lady,
sing the silence
laugh the answers, sob or shout
I lie in coldness, deaf and numb
now learning I need you here!

Song's lady,
I strain to listen,
fight to reach you,
rage and mourn,
yet stay,
holding what we made
two spirits small and bright
blazing from eyes you gave.

Bright lady,
the lives we formed here
I cherish as I now would you
They'll finish the lessons you well began,
calm my bitter spirit,
free my binding rage
love my angry self, know me.

My lady,
how I wish I'd called you that!
that's what I must do,
they tell me
those who'd heal me,
those few friends who know
these left who've all raged,
lost and dreamed.

Then, lady
no wondering, no more wandering for me
then, Love,
I'll reshape all these dreams
I'll weep and you'll hear me,
you'll sing out my name
just want me aloud,
I'll be through!

Soon, lady,
gods willing if any still care
Ill find where you've gone all this time,
so easily, I'll reach you
and never sure how
just let go and 'jump' for your smile!

Now, lady,
I hear you,
there's no turning back
I see you, touch and hold fast
no Shadow here
no darkness, no grieving,
now Skybird, together
just watch us fly!


written in Dec '80