Sometimes I Forget... Poem by Mohammad Younus

Sometimes I forget...
...what the purpose of my life is;
Unconscious and insane, ...
...my energies I extravagate...
My story gets told in various ways...
...a wayward, a rebel, ...
...an extravagant, a dirty joke;
These dark phases of my life that I follow...
...Are they accidental or a part of some plan? ...
...Is there any difference between my actions
...and God's actions?
You have given Satan an authority over me...
...and caused me to fall in his trap,
Out of humility, I said to you...
... Our lord! We did do this to ourselves;
Even then, you ask me...
...Why didn't you defend yourself...
...with the reason...
... that I have given to you?
Sire! both erring and repentence...
...come from you,
Why should I be held guilty for the one...
...and appreciated for the other? ...
...Not a leaf turns without your will...
...Let me quote your own words in the Holy Book...
... 'you cannot will, except by the will of Allah! '

Mykoul