I went through a moment where my life was juss hell and pain, for a moment i really wanted to slit my vein,
i didnt find a reason to be here anymore especially after i found out i was about to have a kid from someone i didnt know
i was only 14 and i was pressured into having sex i wasnt in the U.S. and i was threatened, i was fighting for my life
but i had to take it, couldnt tell my mom cause i didnt want her to worry, i had to be strong and keep myself calm even tho i cried to sleep
as the nights felt soo long.
2 years after i made a new friend i skipped school to go chill with him,
little did i know something was slipped into my drink...so i blacked out and dont remember a thing
when i woke up i saw 2 condoms by my hand i had no clothes on and then he came in,
i was pushed down and hit in the head and i blacked out and i dont remember a thing
i was dropped off and i went straight to bed ive never cried soo much before i felt like i was a little kid,
i felt alone, clueless but couldnt tell, cause of what happened was all my fault, i left school for some fun
but that fun turned to be into rape, ever since then i neva forgave myself for leavin,
I neva saw the light but i know i will one day i juss cant believe ive made it up to this day,
20 years of life but i still blame myself for it
yes it still hurts but i cant move on from it, I cant run away from my past so i learned that but i cant accept my past and i know that
if it happened for a reason then what is it cause im just about to call it quits so let it be it.
I never knew my father so i was never daddys little girl, i wish i was maybe things would of been different,
ive survived my struggle but i still feel alone with no one to confide to, no one to catch me when i fall
im still in a world where i cant find no happiness but im still here hoping that maybe one day ill find it...
(To Be Continued)
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