Talk N Tell Poem by Amber Leigh

Talk and tell,
Not kiss and tell,
Is my new way of life,
Keep everything,
Bottled inside,
This way,
my feelings can hide,
These moods i get,
Dont need to conceal,
Cause no one cares,
How i feel.
Why cant i have,
An understanding friend,
Someone who will,
Absorb things i say,
Filter through the words,
And say, 'it's okay.'
Not hear me talk,
Then get pissed,
Turn their back and walk,
Away to leave me alone,
When what i'm doing,
Is to make me happy,
So my heart of stone,
Can tolerate,
All the hate,
i recieve,
Cause in friends,
You cannot cheat,
Even if,
The mess wont be neat,
No need to share,
Memories i have,
I live a jynx,
Whenever i dare,
To use this mouth,
Say the wrong things,
To use this 'brain, '
And feel pain,
To use this 'heart',
The hardest of all,
I wont listen to it,
Until i fall,
Through my regrets,
All of my lies,
They stole my breath,
Left me to die,
Mentally not physically,
Cant think straight,
Any longer,
For, i am the bait,
Of each person on earth,
The qualities i have,
Bring out the worst,
Brainless,
Hated excessively,
Sadness,
Negative (absolutely) ,
Jealous,
Forgiveness is truly,
Unable to accept,
This person i am,
I guess i am,
A problem to be,
No one will ever accept me..