Lost in a world of my own
Trapped in a body that feels foreign, I have no control.
Emotions are ripping me apart
Battered and bruised inside yet smiles on the outside.
I seem so positive and sure acting like I know what I want
Young ones see me as an example of what they want.
In reality negativity overwhelms me, invades my privacy and messes up
my entire mentality.
I am in pain!
I say Apphia never lose but this battle is one I never expected.
I am fighting myself, Apphia wants to kill and get rid of Apphia but exactly which Apphia must win?
It's the lowest point in all my years of living.
How do I get out of this precipice?
Slowly I'm losing myself, I'm losing my purpose, losing my joy, I question my sanity because I feel I'm losing my mind too.
But I am afraid, afraid it just might be the start of losing my life.
I am screaming out and no one hears me, they can't grasp the intensity of my hurt, they just don't hear me.
I am crying out, I am crying out!
Will someone free me.
I am enslaved, my hands are tied behind my back, I am helpless I am hopeless.
I would like someone to liberate me from these shackles and handcuffs of confusion. Please liberate me!
I can't see my way, my path is blurred, my future is not clear
All I can rely on is divine intervention via prayer.
Some brotherly love and direction from above along with Godly fear
have me standing today.
Now I am sincerely positive, sincerely sure and I stand sincerely strong.
I stand today sincerely strong.
Written: 30/10/08
i like it. its honest and filled with emotion. its unstructured though which could be a good thing, that is to say stepping out of the confines of traditional poetry. it felt though at time you were just venting as if writing a journal, losing the poetic effect. but to me it was good because i read the entire piece twice.
This poem expresses intense feelings of being lost. Feeling lost is quite normal Anguish and fear assoicated with it is quite normal Sometimes noticing the 'small' blessings in life like a sunrise or the sound of the sea can really bring us back on track
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Honest and heartfelt words, I myself have gone thru that phase in life, but as with everything, time heals. It's good that you turned to the only place I believe anyone can find peace an solace. An that is in God. Thank you for sharing